Things...

I have had a lot on my mind lately...

Mostly I need a job.

 

I have been out of work since the end of May.

My teaching contract was non-renewed.

I have not been able to find a teaching job.

I have not been able to find any job.

I have had a few interviews.

I have applied for well over 200 jobs.

I am frustrated.

 

I want to work.

I want to work where I am able to use my gifts.

I want to work at a place where I will make more than my unemployment.

 

I have been told I am not trying hard enough.

I have been told I don't want a job bad enough.

I have been told these things because I don't talk about it.

All I think about 24/7 is a job.

I don't want to talk about it anymore.

I have applied and applied and applied and applied.

And applied some more. 

 

I keep thinking about ways I can make money on my own.

Can I sell stuff online?

What can I make that others would want to buy?

 

It's hard.  Really hard.

I KNOW GOD has a plan for me.

I have to go through the valleys to see from the hills.

I am not alone in my job search.

It could always be worse.

I am not hungry.

(I could stand to not eat for a few days.)

I am not without a roof over my head.

I have clothes on my back.

I do not have health insurance, but I am not sick.

I can afford my medicines.

I still get my Sonic Route 44 Diet Coke every day.

I have gas in my car to get me where I need to go.

I have what I need.

It could be much, much worse.

 

I have some opportunities that I am very excited about.

Not enough to get me out of unemployment, but I won't lose any either.

I am thankful for that.

 

Just needed to vent for a few.

 

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord.  "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11